Ive been having bad dreams?

okay ive been having bad dreams were i end up in the hospital , i get beat by the guys i love , i cry to this guy all he does is r*pe me this one is reall life i lost my dad when i was 3 of alcolhol poisoning well i just saw pics of when i was first born where my dad was holding me , my aunt , gma gpa and my gpa on my moms side well i keep having dreams of me crying about seeing those pics in all my dreams i cry to my gma also i have dreams of me and all my friends dieing so y am i having these dreams